Bright, lights, white, needles, gowns, hair nets, apple juice, IVs…oh my! I do not have a deep affection for hospitals, not because they aren’t doing the world, including myself, a huge and meaningful service…but quite frankly, I’m a bit of a chicken and I don’t like pain. Every time I have to go to the hospital it involves a shot of some of sort or an IV being inserted (sometimes twice) into one of my hard to find, teeny, tiny veins—and it just plain hurts. Now I know, as soon as the initial pain subsides the healing begins, but it’s just being brave enough to face the initial sting that allows us to get to the sweet reward.
One of the many gifts I was given through the birth of my children, was the lovely gift of Carpal Tunnel. It’s a common condition in which there is excessive pressure on the median nerve due to being trapped by inflamed ligaments. This is the nerve in the wrist that allows the hand to experience full feeling and full movement. For three years, I put off surgery and suffered through the pain of this syndrome for fear of going under the knife and that the temporary effects of surgery would cause me to be unable to care for my kids properly, continue writing and accomplishing all of the things I wanted to accomplish; and mainly, for hope that I could fix it all on my own.
It’s funny how we often choose to remain paralyzed in pain, for fear of what it will take to become free.
So what is paralyzing you? Trapping you to the point where you can no longer move, no longer feel?
What will it take to become free? And are you willing to face the temporary growing pains that come with obedience to find freedom again?
Whether physical pain or addictions, unforgiven emotional hurt of the past or present, spiritual strongholds or unrepentant sins—our body, soul and spirit can be set free. Because you see, while I was existing with my pain, I couldn’t fully live until a surgeon took me by the hand and cut into the very source of my pain, slashing that enemy within and freeing me to be able to move and feel again. I didn’t realize I was a slave to my sufferings, until they were relieved.
Our Father speaks, “Very truly I tell you, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”- John 8:34-36a
And while Freedom may require sacrifice, our light and momentary suffering and sacrifices are nothing compared to the suffering our Savior endured and sacrifice our God made on our behalf and for our Ultimate Freedom.
“Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart…In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.”- Hebrews 12:3-4
Because of Jesus, freedom is ultimately free. It’s a gift given to all who choose to lay down their lives and daily pick up the cross. The cross on which the blood of Jesus was shed so we no longer have to be entrapped by the false Gods of this world which we worship for their ability to temporarily provide what only God can truly and eternally bring—love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.
I couldn’t fix me. I could only fix my eyes on Jesus. I couldn’t try hard enough. I could only let go. While I was good at soothing the symptoms, I never reached the root. Jesus loves us so much that he is willing to reach in and break us free from the inside out. He knows it might hurt, but, while we serve a mighty and jealous God, we also belong to the God of all Comfort.
The truth is I didn’t have to be brave at all. I just had to be weak. Weak enough to let God be the one to endure the pain for me, to comfort and hold me, to heal me and make me whole. It didn’t matter how long I’d waited or how far I’d let it go. As soon I said, ‘yes’ to healing, as soon as I said ‘yes’ to freedom—I was set free, free indeed!
“So let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.” Hebrews 12:-2
Worship: I love music & I love to share it. Each song is for each post. Listen and Enjoy! I Can Just Be Me
Gratitude: Give Thanks: “Very truly I tell you, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”- John 8:34-36a
Grow: “It’s funny how we often choose to remain paralyzed in pain, for fear of what it will take to become free.” How is the true in your life today? What is one step you can make toward finding freedom?
Give: “So let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.” Hebrews 12:-2 Is there anyone you can come alongside to assist and hold them up as they work to run this race with perseverance?
Each LSLW post includes three areas of reflection in hopes to offer a chance for us to give thanks, grow in our personal faith and find ways to pour out from our lives what Christ has poured into us.
© Tamara Gurley 2014